stand strong,rock on;

Putting him first is my new priority

It’s so easy to be nice to those who are nice to me but what I need to do is to be nice even to those who ain’t nice to me. It kills me a little to have to be sincere to those whom I know isn’t , whose words can hurt like knife. I’m just really afraid I’ll get hurt more and I don’t wanna pretend like it doesn’t matter .
Dear God, please give me a big heart and help me to learn from you to even love those that persecute you . Amen

Mixed feelings

Well. It feels like nothing we do will ever be enough. I don’t even know if I love you anymore but I know I need you . :’(

Starting to grumble about things you didn’t do for me in the past , psychology lectures makes me feel like I’ve missed out on everytime. Everything to make me such a useless/ unloved /insecure self now. Stupid lecture makes me hate my life story. I wish I was born into a more normal family so I could have a better childhood which will give me Better character and more confidence now. I hate myself so much now because I should be thankful instead of complaining about what I don’t have. But you know how it feels to feel insecure and that I fall short everytime. You know how it feels that I subconsciously crave for the attention I never had ? You know how it feels like not knowing how to trust because even the one ‘made’ you left? You know how it feels when people calls you despo and actually all you wanted was some love from the opposite sex because you NEVER had any? 😭😭😭

Fml really. I should be grateful I know .

But since I can’t do anything about my childhood now that I’m already a adolescence , I swear to give my child in future a good life and to be a mom they would be proud to have .

the-tardis-gets-wifi:

cisbloodscum:

it makes me really uncomfortable that 12am comes before 11am

let’s file this under things that I was not fully aware of until a text post happened

(Source: chillaxton)